Wednesday, 1 July 2015

Je suis moi

Is it normal that most times when im sleep deprived i start talking alot and i feel strangely inspired? and when I sleep and wake up afterwards i feel down. Downtime doesnt last long though.

"If you ever want your soul to dance in the clouds, you will at some point have to juggle lightning and taste the thunder." -Christopher Poindexter

Friday was amazing. Denys showed me a place in KL where there was a DnB event being held. Its his favourite kind of music but up until then i havent heard of it before. I do like trance, and those stuff so i thought maybe its similar. So come friday, we did some pre-drinking in pool area and we were on our way!

Pub was a bit empty but we didnt mind at all. a few friends said they would join and they came about an hour and a half later. By the time they arrived me and Denys were good for the niiight. About two D.J's played and around 1 am the real D.J came and by real i mean the guy the event was originally about. every once in a while there would be a surge of what looked like backpackers that would come dance and go. Honestly most of the time the music was very dancable, but sometimes it was a bit too quick for my mood and that was when id sit down or lean on the table as to chill a little.

I thought the first two guys that played were alright, we danced a little and what not but when the real D.J started I knew nothing else. It was the shit. Imagine you are high as f*&% and if you close your eyes you can hear and feel every single beat. I felt like the D.J was communicating with us! He was that awesome. To me it sounded like reggae DnB most of the time, if there is even such a thing but i heard its either Jungle? or Liquid DnB. But I really have no idea, all i know is that I absolutely love liquid DnB from now on .

There was a boy that looked like the event photographer and that guy was just standing near the D.J's deck dancing like crazy! the guy was having so much fun it made me happy! I swear he looked like he was just feeling the music, he was on a whole other level and i remember me and Denys just looking at him. He was trying to take pictures at some point and i was just fascinated by the struggle. I was curious if he'd be able to make it XD. He goes to put those flashy things that flash when you shoot on top of the speaker and goes a bit further to try and shoot and it falls then he goes to fix it the second time and finally it stabilizes. He then asks if he could take pictures of us and i hesitantly agree because i normally dont really like or trust strangers taking pictures of me (might sound a bit silly but i dont like not knowing where a picture of me might end up being-working on it though because really, who cares). He then asks for our facebook names so that we can be tagged and at that point i stop him because no way but i gave him my facebook name nonetheless because i would still like the pics to be sent to me. The guy impressed me, on top of his level of highness, the pics were on point!

later on we find out he was actually the event planner or one of the event planners. and he is a very nice guy. Seems super fun and he tells me he is from Hong Kong :)

I was worried Nad and Eman were not having as much fun as Denys and I were, but they seemed ok after asking them 10 times if they were fine haha. They came with a friend that was named Jack and he was in his own world the entire time. They later told us that he appologizes for being anti-social but he just has a few things he needed to take care of so we were like its alright if he's good! So basically Jack spent the night on the couch drinking a beer and on his phone, but he assured us that he was good :).

"Take a lover who looks at you like maybe you are magic." -Frida Kahlo

It was time to go after taking a few group photos and socialising with fellow party people. Nad, Eman and Jack were driving back and they asked what me and Denys were planning to do so we just told them that we would figure it out, we are neighbours anyway so our route would be the same haha. Said our goodbyes and that was my friday night story.

"Understand me. Im not like an ordinary world. I have my madness, I live in another dimension and I do not have time for things that have no soul." -Charles Bukowski

I promised myself that 2015 would be a year of trying and doing as much new things as possible. In the process, I met people and learnt things, had interesting conversations and laughed like ive never laughed before. Its amazing and the year is not over yet. One of the craziest things ive done was to travel (not really far away but like to different cities and such) to meet people ive only talked with briefly or for a short time over the phone. Ofcourse the conversations must have been interesting or there must have been something i liked about the person or something that intrigued me about them, or again it could have just been a nice conversation that id make such a move.

So I was really stressed out at the time and It was when i first met Mathew. He told me he was going to be in Penang for a few days and asked if I wanted to join. Fast forward a couple of days later im on the bus on my way to Penang! and it was amazing. I remember being a little bit nervous and anxious. Ive always loved Penang, matter of fact ive even considered moving there previously. and so I was like even if he turns out to be a not so nice person (which was not the case at all!) or if the company wouldnt be up to my level of satisfaction or what not id just leave and enjoy my trip alone.

He waited for me at the bus station, I peaked from my window and i saw this handsome guy standing on the pavement and i knew it was him straight away! said our hellos and we were on our way to George town were we chilled for a while at a little cafe till we found a place to stay.

Later we met Dan and a Lisa. It was good. Overall a good experience I loved it all. Moral of the story is when a stranger asks you to accompany them on a trip say yes! No, dont. You must always evaluate a few things before responding, but i guess sometimes luck and fate work together which i reckon is what happened in my case :D.

"I got lost in him and it was the kind of lost that's exactly like being found." -Claire LaZebnik

Dan was from china and he was one of the nicest and funniest humans ive ever met! Also a very curious person and i really dig that. Basically I had great company in Penang and im very lucky. The more people you meet (preferably from different countries, cultures, with different backgrounds and traditions) the more you learn, and the more you expand your knowledge, the more your mind grows and the more your soul desires to seek more. It is simply beautiful. It is a gift from the universe and people should be grateful for such experiences and opportunities because it is like having the world at the palm of your hands.

 Dan was having difficulties saying my name and so he settles with susu :'). As payback perhaps, I started calling Matt 'Gummy bear', because his skin was so soft! and it was just a cute nickname (so creative Sumaya, well done). I remember vividly one night we were playing an X O game on my notebook, and gummy bear tells me something.

"Players only love you when they're playing."

I never quite understood, but nonetheless as time passed the phrase made more sense to me. Its very simple. Sometimes people say or mention things that you don't really understand but as time goes on you sort of get it. Or you could just ask what they mean straight away hah.

Randomly, I would like to declare out loud for no particular reason that If a person offends me, I will probably try to not let it get to me, but they will just not see my face again because aint nobody got time for that! (Ideally id like it to be that way).

"She was too quiet or she was too loud. She took things too seriously or not seriously at all. She was too sensitive, or too cold-hearted.  She hated with every fiber of her being, or loved with every piece of her heart. There was no in-between for her. It was either all or nothing. She wanted everything but settled for nothing." -Unknown

And then someone comments "She was...bipolar." XD so funny well done.

Saturday was spent lazying around the house and Sunday I went with Denys to buy shoes but ended up buying nothing. We just talked and laughed like we usually do and that was fun. I think thats all for now. Nothing more. I should be taking some professional photos sometime this week and im sort of shy and excited. Im sure they'll turn out looking interesting or at least I hope they do! If not ill just have a good laugh and tell myself that ive tried something new and always wanted, to make myself feel better.

"In a world full of trends, I want to remain a classic." -Iman

I would also like to declare that this post is actually a tiny bit late. As in being posted a bit late. But I guess that is for a reason. I have literally not slept for almost 24hrs now for no reason! This morning i had the most interesting conversation with someone. About spirituality in general. I wont go into details with this, but i just want to say that it was one of the most amazing conversations ive had lately! So much knowledge is being passed to me and i am thankful and grateful! This is exactly what ive been asking for. well one of the things ive been asking for and wanting.

"She was like the moon - part of her was always hidden away." -Dia Reeves

In my entire life there was only one person that was able to have such a conversation with me and that person is not in my life anymore unfortunately because it seems the universe just wants it that way i guess, maybe i would fully understand another time but nevermind, this was crazy! I was literally waiting for this person to dissappoint me because i couldnt believe it but throughout the conversation, I knew that this person knows exactly what they were talking about. I like being spiritual but i am not guru! I know nothing and that is my mindset because i am in a learning phase at the moment. I have things to share as well but i need to learn as well.

People are not perfect. and sometimes we must try and put ourselves in other peoples shoes. Perhaps try to relate. Forgive if you feel wronged and forgive... especially if after empathizing with a person you feel may be apologizing sincerely. And then perhaps something could change. Perhaps the person that may have wronged you, would learn their lesson and admire your forgiveness, and it could change something in them. This may not make so much sense. Total random rant. But i have observed a situation that has recently happened and this point has been brought to my attention. A different perspective maybe.

"Most people do not listen with the intent to understand; they listen with the intent to reply." -Stephen R. Covey


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